Honestly I'm ok

I have this peace from God that I'm so incredibly blown away by Yet what sucks is what makes me feel the saddest is seeing my dog Cloud. Aaron loved him like he was his own and they were so attached to each other. It hurts whenever I see Cloud now. Oh and.. I was wrong, I did get the job. Now Aaron and I are coworkers. Hopefully it won't be too awkward..

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so my boyfriend breaks up with me and I don't know until a week later, one of my dogs die, and the one job I really needed gets handed over to my coworker. I'm doing my best to see it all as a blessing in disguise but it is just so incredibly hard right now. I'm Having stomach problems again and I know that it's from stress. I'm so anxious to the point where I can literally feel every heart beat and every time my hands tremble. That saying "don't put all your eggs in one basket" couldn't hold more truth than it does now. The job I wanted, the man I thought i was going to marry, and even taking my little pug for granted... All gone. "You give and take away, my heart will choose to say, Lord blessed be Your name.." Those lyrics have never been so difficult to sing, without thinking "God You're selfish." I'm constantly wrestling with You only knowing I'm going to lose. It's the stupidest feeling. I can't even cry anymore.