trying not to take it personally

just came back from rock youth movement, aka the youth (grades 6-12) ministry from my church...

amazing worship, message, prayer, etc... but just the sense of brokenness and emptiness was so evident and heartbreaking.

i had to lead one of the discussion groups and there were these two girls, obviously not wanting to be there... flat expressions and all. isolation. texting while i'm speaking, etc. just so much darkness. didn't say a word, didn't care. it was almost kinda scary..

but i know that there's hope. i was once in their shoes. and so i pray that all that brokenness in that room tonight may just be replaced by God's grace. that whatever pain they are currently encountering, that the blood of Christ has atoned for it. He has and will redeem for those He has mercy upon.

so i'm really trying my hardest not to take tonight's experience so personally. i haven't lead any sort of discussion/done a leadership role in SO long, so it's just really crazy... i felt like i was talking to a wall, but i know that God's presence was there. it's impossible for Him not to be.